We Lit Nine Candles: The Remembrance Service

We Lit Nine Candles: The Remembrance Service

On Tuesday night we held our 12th Annual Candlelight Remembrance Service at the Laguna Hills Community Center.

These evenings are unlike anything I’ve ever experienced before.

The evening started cheerfully enough as families filtered in and re-connected with different staff members that helped them. There are always hugs but then the context of our relationship tends to hit and the mood grows somber. For many, this is a night looked for and cherished for the healing it has brought. There is anxiety for some who don’t know what they will experience or maybe don’t want to experience anything. For others, it’s a struggle just to walk through the doors.

As families take their seats the silence in the room becomes profound.  By the time 7 o’clock comes the hearts brimming with emotion and memory are ready to be poured out.

But this year our service opened differently.

2013 has been a particularly prominent year of loss for the staff at O’Connor. People sometimes think that funeral directors & mortuary employees have hearts that are hardened to grief, that somehow our exposure could make us immune. If working at a mortuary meant you didn’t feel grief we would receive thousands of applications a day.

Chuck said it well when he wrote, “Doing what we do, I swear some people think we are immune to the pain and angst that a loved one’s death can bring. We are not and I know it is the hardest thing we can go through in this life.” If you remember his blog from a month ago, you’ll recall that he does know what he’s talking about.

But, you see, it’s actually the exact opposite. Most of us at O’Connor have experienced a personal, family death first-hand. We aren’t inexperienced or hardened against grief. We have had death forced on us just like the families we serve. We feel called to this job not because of what we can’t feel, but because of what we have felt.

our 9 candles

our 9 candles


In 2013, 9 of our employees experienced a close, family death. That means roughly 1/4 of our staff is actively grieving a significant loss.

So this year warranted something different. We lit 9 candles in memory of the husband, brothers, parents (one employee lost both) & grandparents our staff have lost this year.

As candles were lit and pictures played I was struck by two things:

1. Everyone gathered in that room was connected, one to the other, by grief. We had 70 different families who chose to be there, to remember, to honor their loved one before others. For some families this was the only service held for their loved one, or the only one they were able to attend. It’s an evening with many purposes as unique as the individual but all centered on their grief.

In Memory of Lou Collins

In Memory of Lou Collins


That connection was palpable. I observed a compassionate person offer Kleenex across the aisle to a teary stranger. I watched as whole families, a spouse, or a group of friends stood as they heard the name they were there for read aloud.

2. The second thing I found particularly profound was that because of this grief-connection, there was a sense of community rather than the aloneness that usually accompanies grief. While grief can be isolating in it’s specificity & uniqueness, it is difficult to stand in a room surrounded by weepy families and think that you are alone in your pain. I think many found it encouraging to be reminded that others have lost, others are facing a first Christmas without that special someone, others will be crying through the holidays, like you.

Our speaker, a Hospice Chaplain commented on the need to have grace for yourself. Grief is messy, there’s no clear road. Take out the “I should be’s” and just be where you are.

If you’d like more information for yourself or others you know that are having a particularly hard Christmas & Holiday season, click here to see the different grief-specific brochures available. “When You Grieve During the Holidays” is particularly poignant.

Have you ever attended our Candlelight Remembrance Service? 

Who were you there to remember? What was your experience like?

Molly Keating
Molly Keating
Molly grew up in and around funeral homes her entire life. In 2009 she began working for O'Connor Mortuary and found a bridge between her passion for writing and her interest in grief and bereavement. In 2016 she earned Certification in the field of Thanatology, the study of Death, Dying and Bereavement. She is honored to be able to write about these taboo topics with knowledge, compassion, and a unique perspective.


  1. Greg Forster says:


    This was the 3rd service that I have attended.

    I did not know what to expect the first time, but my take away brought the following words and accompanying thoughts:
    “simple, elegant, powerful, quiet, community, beauty, thoughtful, deep, care, support, commonality, others, strangers who for a moment are not strangers, common thoughts, feelings, sharing”.

    The time frame is not too short and not too long….it is enough for people to be open to, absorb, share, and put into their own personal perspective.

    I, as a member of the O’Connor staff, look forward to these special evenings. The opportunities to meet, greet, connect and experience/show compassion are not to be missed.

    Next year, if anyone reading this is “on the fence” about attending, please be assured that this is a moment not to be missed….not to be missed because it is a moment both for and all about you.


    • Greg, thank you so much for your positive support and willingness to be a part of this evening. It is so wonderful to have the staff represented so well and even more wonderful that we are such advocates of the work we do. When we believe in what we’re doing we’re unstoppable and I love your encouragement to future others as they consider attending. We know how good it is and that’s what we want to share. Thank you so much Greg!

  2. Tom says:

    I was at a candlelight service for my mother and I,my father, and sister were deeply affected by the event. Thank you for all O’Connor Mortuary does for the community.

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